So, I hope you never have to find this out, but when you find out your child has cancer the first thing that happens is, what I call, your “butt falls out”. Its the feeling that all the sudden your gut drops. Next, your joints suddenly hurt and feel like they can’t hold you. Then the pain in your chest comes. The type where you wonder if you will be able to breathe ever again.
The same happens when you hear that there is a new spot and that new spot has grown.
Last week it happened and our lives once again got upended. A new normal interrupted once again. It ripples through all our house. Its the elephant in every room that no one is talking about, but its very clearly there.
Although my gut is still intact and I am upright…we most definitely are feeling like we can’t breathe still. Not until its out and we know what it is.
Butt Falls Out Moment
Strong as a Mother 